Getting it both ways

This concludes my night of bad beats. I mean KK < AK, AA < AQ all for full buyin+. Yes, I know and I'm sure you've all been there so if you don't want to hear it, you can leave now. But I am running so fuckin bad it's fuckin unbelievable. I can't get any fuckin traction on anything. I would win $100 and then my stack that grew to $500 gets stacked off in a sick beat. I mean fuckin aye. I'm showing a $700 difference between my actual winning and my $EV for tonight's session. SEVEN HUNDRED FUCKIN DOLLARS. And to boot (and hence my title), I don't get rakeback but I continue to play chasing losses. Bayne suggested I opt out (self exclusion) to show displeasure to fulltilt but that goes against everything I believe in (like online is actually not rigged). Plus, I'm getting it in ahead so even though I'm tilting, I'm fuckin playing well. Man, I haven't felt like I wanted to break something as much as I do right now in a long fuckin time.

At least this hand was fun and pretty much a flip (though I was still allegedly the favorite to win) as opposed to others which were just sick beats.

Full Tilt Poker Game #8480968312: Table Brooks - $2/$4 - No Limit Hold'em - 0:25:47 ET - 2008/10/14
Seat 1: AK_N8tive ($160)
Seat 2: Bobz2433 ($443.50)
Seat 3: nm_21 ($407.40)
Seat 4: AdmiralTwill ($488)
Seat 5: degtine ($323.80)
Seat 6: MCV88 ($1,197.30)
Seat 7: LegacyRik ($451.20)
Seat 9: RecessRampage ($478.40)
MCV88 posts the small blind of $2
LegacyRik posts the big blind of $4
The button is in seat #5
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to RecessRampage [Tc Qc]
RecessRampage raises to $14
Bobz2433 folds
nm_21 folds
AdmiralTwill folds
degtine folds
MCV88 has 15 seconds left to act
MCV88 folds
dhde1328 sits down
LegacyRik calls $10
dhde1328 adds $80
*** FLOP *** [Jc Qh 9c]
LegacyRik checks
RecessRampage bets $23
LegacyRik raises to $72
RecessRampage raises to $464.40, and is all in
LegacyRik calls $365.20, and is all in
RecessRampage shows [Tc Qc]
LegacyRik shows [Kc Kh]
Uncalled bet of $27.20 returned to RecessRampage
*** TURN *** [Jc Qh 9c] [6h]
*** RIVER *** [Jc Qh 9c 6h] [5h]
RecessRampage shows a pair of Queens
LegacyRik shows a pair of Kings
LegacyRik wins the pot ($901.40) with a pair of Kings
RecessRampage adds $372.80
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $904.40 | Rake $3
Board: [Jc Qh 9c 6h 5h]
Seat 1: AK_N8tive is sitting out
Seat 2: Bobz2433 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: nm_21 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: AdmiralTwill didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: degtine (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: MCV88 (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 7: LegacyRik (big blind) showed [Kc Kh] and won ($901.40) with a pair of Kings
Seat 9: RecessRampage showed [Tc Qc] and lost with a pair of Queens