Struggling...

I think I'm on work tilt. Fortunately, it's not affecting my poker game (at least not in ways that I'm aware of) but it sucks. Good thing is, I am uberbusy so my day goes by fast. Bad thing is, I am so busy so I have to wait till after hours to blog. And I like to do these things on company time.

Anyways, recently, I've been posting a lot of strategy type of stuff and I hope it's benefited some of you. I think it has since I've gotten comments that say that as well as emails and girly chats that people hit me up on. However, I also started thinking about what lucko had mentioned. Now I know he said it kind of in a half serious/half joke kinda way but he said "Feel free not to keep making good strategy post tho." So that got me to thinking.

Some of us take this game seriously. And then some of us take it way too seriously. You can put me in the way, way too much category. I think part of it is because I have a goal to at least quit my job. I don't know if poker will be full time but I definitely want to a) move out of Richmond, b) take a few months off from work and travel (mainly in Europe but who knows where else), and c) just not work for a little while. And because my goal is there, I noticed a sense of desperation in the way I play. I mean every minute I have, I play. I feel like I should be playing at all times. If I'm not playing, I'm not making money, and therefore it's bad. That's how I find myself thinking. Which is unhealthy. Fortunately, somehow, working out comes in front of poker. I guess I am not deranged yet.

Anyways, so that got me thinking because I thought what exactly is the benefit of me posting hand histories and strategy posts. I mean what good does it do for me? I think there are some hand histories that benefit me when I talk through it but I'm just not sure I want to divulge as much as I have in the past. I mean I have literally posted my exact thought process during the hands and I do wonder if that's costing me some money, esp if there are nonbloggers that read my blog (which I don't know if they do or not but it's possible... if you google RecessRampage, it obv takes you here).

Having said that, I'm sure I'll still post plenty of HH's but I'm not sure if I'll put in as much detail on my thoughts as I have... but then again, I might. I just don't know. Hence, the struggle.

As for this past weekend, I did not go to AC (mainly because I had to work late Fri night when everyone else was drinking and watching basketball). However, I had a few decent cash game sessions so even though I only played maybe 4-5 hrs on Sat and Sun combined, I was up approx $3k for the weekend. I woulda made a bigger deal about it until I saw all the big online scores from LJ, Bayne, and Smokkee. That's the beauty of tournaments right? At least you could say you left a mark. Damn, I wanna get good in tourneys. Maybe one day. But until then, I guess I'll continue to donk around in cash games.