Dammit!

I'm really in no mood to update the blog tonight. Just been in a crappy mood all day but I was getting ready for the MATH and I actually felt ready when it started. But one bad play and then an unfortunate hand right afterwards ended my MATH in 16 minutes. And to summarize how my tournament went down? I play like a F*CKIN P*SSY. Sometimes, I really hate myself. See below:

Full Tilt Poker Game #2585583866: Mondays at the Hoy (19464432), Table 1 - 20/40 - No Limit Hold'em - 22:12:06 ET - 2007/06/04
Seat 1: TripJax (2,625)
Seat 2: Blinders (2,875)
Seat 3: Misterd2U (3,140)
Seat 4: wwonka69 (2,805)
Seat 5: RecessRampage (3,415)
Seat 6: jeciimd (2,955)
Seat 7: columbo (2,930)
Seat 8: lucko21 (3,255)
columbo posts the small blind of 20
lucko21 posts the big blind of 40
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to RecessRampage [Kh 3c]
TripJax folds
Blinders folds
Misterd2U folds
wwonka69 folds
RecessRampage raises to 140 <--- from CO... so I was going for a steal. what's your problem???
jeciimd calls 140 <--- uh oh
columbo folds
lucko21 folds
*** FLOP *** [4c 2h 5c] <--- nice flop!
RecessRampage bets 250 <--- cbet
jeciimd raises to 500
RecessRampage calls 250
*** TURN *** [4c 2h 5c] [Td]
lucko21: nah, havent played that in about a week
RecessRampage checks
jeciimd bets 500 <--- looks awfully weak doesn't it?
RecessRampage calls 500
*** RIVER *** [4c 2h 5c Td] [2c] <--- completes the flush! Perfect scare card!
RecessRampage checks <--- *chicken noise*
jeciimd checks
*** SHOW DOWN ***
jeciimd shows [Ks Ac] (a pair of Twos) <--- I could have easily bluffed him off
RecessRampage mucks
jeciimd wins the pot (2,340) with a pair of Twos

If I can't make a play against the tightest player in the blogger world, I really have no business trying to steal with garbage hands like that...

Yes, guys, I know! You don't have to tell me. No comments necessary. WEAK WEAK WEAK WEAK WEAK! *sigh*

And the very next hand Blinders sent me packing with this beauty:

Full Tilt Poker Game #2585596069: Mondays at the Hoy (19464432), Table 1 - 20/40 - No Limit Hold'em - 22:13:27 ET - 2007/06/04
Seat 1: TripJax (2,625)
Seat 2: Blinders (2,875)
Seat 3: Misterd2U (3,140)
Seat 4: wwonka69 (2,805)
Seat 5: RecessRampage (2,275)
Seat 6: jeciimd (4,155)
Seat 7: columbo (2,910)
Seat 8: lucko21 (3,215)
lucko21 posts the small blind of 20
TripJax posts the big blind of 40
The button is in seat #7
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to RecessRampage [Ah Qs]
Blinders raises to 120
Misterd2U folds
wwonka69 folds
RecessRampage: don't say it
RecessRampage: you guys all think it and I know it
RecessRampage calls 120
jeciimd folds
columbo folds
lucko21 folds
RecessRampage: <--- p*ssy
TripJax calls 80
*** FLOP *** [6c Tc Qd]
TripJax checks
Blinders bets 240
RecessRampage raises to 620
lucko21: heh <--- thanks Lucko :)
TripJax folds
Blinders raises to 2,755, and is all in
RecessRampage calls 1,535, and is all in
Blinders shows [Qc Kc]
RecessRampage shows [Ah Qs]
Uncalled bet of 600 returned to Blinders
*** TURN *** [6c Tc Qd] [3c]
*** RIVER *** [6c Tc Qd 3c] [7h]
Blinders shows a flush, King high
RecessRampage: gg all
lucko21: gg
RecessRampage shows a pair of Queens
Blinders wins the pot (4,690) with a flush, King high
RecessRampage stands up
Blinders: gg

In case, anyone here thinks I shoulda folded my TPTK because Blinders could have had so many hands to beat me, I hope you are joking. But here's my justification. A) It happened right after I missed the bluff attempt because I was too scared to take a swing at it so it could seem like I was on semi-tilt and B) Blinders know that everyone think he's uber-tight so he might think he could try to semi-bluff me off with a draw and C) if I fold here when my stack is half of what it used to be, what am I even doing playing in a tournament?

Again, I will listen to many different theories. Aaaah, what a night.